I took the last 6 weeks off of circus training because my neck injury was flaring up. The 1 year anniversary of someone running a red light and smashing into my car/life was during that 6 week break, I tried not to let that get me down. I remember being bummed that I had to miss training the day of the accident…. little did I know it would be 10 months before I could return.
It still fucks with me, how one split second can change the rest of your life, and it could have been infinitely worse, but coping with chronic pain and battling PTSD for the last year have not been easy. I have the okay from my doctors to start again today, slowly, and see if adding more stretching and yoga will help in a successful re-return.
I hate even thinking that I might have to quit. Nothing makes me sweat like that fucking hoop, nothing makes my mind still like aerial acrobatics. But more than that, returning to circus school has done more for my PTSD than 18 sessions with my therapist. My mind and body are connected when I am up there, I can work through my fears in a tangible way.